11/16/2021

I liked being a wallflower. I knew I was never the star of the show but at least I was still in the production, or so I thought. I watched as the people around me lived their lives, wore their cute clothes, and met up with their friends. I watched and I realized that they stopped inviting me. I watched them, but they never took a second glance at me. I'm left in their wake, desperately picking up the pieces of myself I didn't realize I had shed to be in their group. However, today I did only what I wanted to do. I got a coffee, studied with music blasting in my head phones, walked around campus, got lunch at the cute sushi restaurant, went to the library, and, finally, I got dinner. And the great thing is, I did it all by myself. Sometimes being alone with yourself is the best kind of company a person can have. I got home today from running around and I looked in the mirror. I liked the person staring back at me. I wish I could say I feel like this everyday, but I don’t. But, nonetheless, I’m trying and I’m figuring myself out. I'm finding myself, by myself, for myself. And today was a really great start.