04/27/2022

 

I feel like I'm losing my mind, reverting to madness to unchacle myself from the loneliness enveloping my soul. Ok, so maybe that was a little exaggerated. I'm just bored, sick, and done living in this tiny dorm. I can't wait for summer and concerts. I can't wait for snow cones in swimsuits on sunny days while I tan outside the pool. I can't wait to get a job and start making some bank so I feel less like a loser. I just can't wait to work on some of my stories on my own time. I've been writing this one story that I'm actually super stoked for. It's about a girl and her father who live in Louisiana on a crawfish farm. One day the girl goes into town to put flowers on her mother's grave and she finds the town completely empty. Her dads number keeps going straight to white noise as well as everyone else she tries to call. I'm not sure where I wanna go with it yet, but I definitely think it's got potential! Oh, and I also bought tickets to see Rex Orange County in concert with my friend and I am beyond excited! Maybe I can finally have one of those summers you read about in the papers. It might even be good enough to be written into a story, though I for sure would have to take some liberties. What's exciting to me is probably far less exciting to the average person. I mean, I read Jane Austen and Charlotte Bronte and think I've peaked. Even though I know no one is probably reading this, I just want to go on record and say that Sweet Sublime (the audiotree live version on Youtube) by Ruby Waters has got to be the best song of all time. It's so vibbey I almost forget that my throat is dying and my stomach is growling. It is truly hypnotising. I'll add the link for anyone who wants to listen and I'm also going to include my sad era playlist from spotify because I think I have immaculate music taste that has only been slightly gassed up. Is it too much to ask for some recognition for my genius music taste? I mean at the very least you could just gaslight me into thinking I have good music taste when I truly don't! If you do however feel like gaslighting me, you should. Gaslighting is my only form of communication and comedy in this world. 

  

💓Ruby Waters Song💓:💓 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UWaWAAdWfRw 💓

Spotify Playlist: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/5lwvbkKqsfVp1C8azCosPV?si=a0165eb899f744e3